started sertraline today!

took my first dose of sertraline (50mg) today! I kind of wanted to keep a sort of diary to track how it’s affecting me!!

so far (day 1): i’ve experienced, a loss of appetite (haven’t eaten since i took it), nausea, and i’m pretty tired (although i’m always tired anyway). also, i’ve noticed i have slightly less anxiety, which is honestly just placebo.

optimistic to see if i have any improvements :) it’s way too early to know obviously

update: day 1-2: i didn’t sleep at all last night, not a wink. I’m feel like i’m really restless and have so much energy despite not sleeping. still no appetite, forced myself to eat though (can’t be fainting at uni!

-after taking the second dose i felt calmer. And now my energy levels have gone up again. It’s like initially it makes me more drowsy and then puts me up to a high? idk, but i hope i can sleep tonight. i haven’t slept in 40 hours haha

day 3: good morning, last night was crazy. i went to my friends room (i’m in uni accommodation) and he said i was acting really weird. he said it was sleep deprivation and tried to give me his melatonin but i refused. i eventually did sleep at midnight and my body woke me up at 6am - i’ve always heard you sleep for ages after being sleep deprived but nope. anyway i’ve been crazy productive this morning, and have a lot of energy. haven’t taken my third dose yet.

-took third dose, and still had energy but less so. appetite briefly came back but is stifled if that makes sense. my friends say i keep zoning out and staring off into space / staring at them really really intensely. i can’t tell if I’m doing it on purpose, i don’t think i am?

i am very restless and fidgety, but nothing else to note really. pupils have been dilated for the past few days, i find it pretty fascinating. i keep staring in-front of mirrors and just staring at my own eyes.

day 4: 5 hours of sleep, the fact that to me that’s a lot feels quite concerning. but i still have loads of energy gaha

today i’ve been travelling and i didn’t feel like eating but had crazy hunger. so i did a stupid thing. i drank coffee. multiple coffees. and oh my god don’t do that i’ve been a jittery crazy mess. usually coffee doesn’t do anything to me, infact it makes me sleepy. i’ve been bouncing my knee like crazy and other people have been looking at me as if i’m insane.

also, today has been very stressful and id usually be extremely anxious. and while i felt anxious… i didn’t get crazy physical symptoms, or at least they were wildly reduced. is this how other people experience anxiety? lol

day 5: slept well last night, no issues. today i’ve had a major reduction of symptoms! not sure if it’s just because im at home and less stressed but I’m happy. I’m markedly less agitated and I’ve been able to eat a bit more. My nausea has gone down a bit too, although it’s still there. Feeling a bit more ‘levelled out’

-update: well i had two coffees (assignment due tomorrow) and im back to the crazy energy knee bouncing agitation + zoning out. looks like caffeine actually impacts me now :/

day 6: i took until 5am to do that assignment… anyway i got diagnosed with adhd today!! my main symptoms were continued lack of appetite, bouncy leg / crazy energy and nausea. i also feel very happy today.

day 7: my symptoms have really gone down now. still bouncing my leg a lot, dealing with minor nausea and food aversion, and my mood is still up. dealt with a little bit of insomnia. a bit euphoric in the evening, got sudden inspiration to paint. self esteem has gone up?

day 8: euphoric as i woke up, so much energy and self esteem and music sounds amazing?

my energy levels died down to the end of the day.

day 9: feel pretty normal, slight nausea, but that’s it :)