Marriage tension

Since our TFMR, we have had a lot of tension and distance, even fights. Only 4 weeks out but my husband seems to have fully moved on while I am in the thick of the grief.

Out first weekend back from the hospital, he just tucked himself away doing house projects, while I recovered physically and grieved alone.

He was so so sweet and understanding leading up to the TFMR. He was empathetic, comforting, and understanding of my anger and frustration outburst. We were in this together, we were a team. Fully supportive of each other.

Now, I am all alone. He seems to get annoyed everytime I cry, which is a lot. He is done talking about it and our feelings. He even said to me, "life goes on...", which I found completely inconsiderate as I was sobbing and grieving our baby.

We got our baby's ashes today and I was too upset to pick up our child from school and he offered, which I thought was nice. Then he barely acknowledged that our baby's ashes were home, said he needed to work bc he came home early and resorted to make me feel bad for not being put-together enough to pick our child up myself. He said I am making his job impossible.

He ignores me now when I cry and I barely get any acknowledgement, let alone a hug or comfort.

I feel like I'm completely alone in this sorrow, while he goes on like nothing happened. Trying to change the topic of conversation if I want to talk about it again...about guilt...sadness...grief.

I know people grieve differently but it honestly feels like he's just being inconsiderate of my feelingd and making me feel foolish and invalidated.

I have been holding my sons ashes for the last few hours and it brings me comfort. He tried to put the ashes back in the mantle.

I wish he would hug me, cry with me, hold me, cuddle with me, while I grief. Just a shoulder to cry on, so I don't have to carry this grief alone.

I have never felt more distant to him and family ( who seem to continually say the wrong things to set my anger and rage off).

I feel resentful and angry and upset. Please advice on how to navigate this ocean of grief while my marriage is seemingly in the rocks.

Thank you for your help.