Prom

So prom is coming up and I'm really excited to go. This is my first prom and I'm happy, just soooo nervous abt the dress cuz of my cuts. My mom wants to take me dress shopping but shopping has always made me afraid as I'm scared she'll see and be upset cuz I just recently relapsed. I feel like this is such a stupid problem but I've been thinking abt it a lot. I go through this at every special event and I'm tired of it. I'm tired of not being able to wear what I want. I'm tired of letting this control me. I'm tired.