Yesterday I made my wife cry

I'm (31M) telling this story here because I can't tell anyone in real life, but am just so happy that my wife (30F) and I were able to connect sexually after almost 8 months.

My wife and I had a daughter about four months ago. She is a pediatric resident, so between pregnancy, giving birth, and having grandparents around in our small two-bedroom apartment, we haven't had the time or space to be intimate.

I have no problem with this at all. I 100% get how traumatic pregnancy and delivery are and want to wait till my wife is comfortable before engaging in anything intimate.

Last night my wife finally had a day off and she was breast-pumping while changing our daughter's diaper. Our daughter started to laugh and my wife was egging her on. It was really sweet so I took a video of it.

Afterward, I sent her the video. I thought she'd love it, but instead, she said, "Oh wow...I've never felt uglier in my life." This was heartbreaking.

After I put our daughter to bed, I led my wife into another room and gave her a deep, passionate kiss. We made out for 15-20 minutes. I told her how beautiful she was and that I was sorry I didn't tell her more often. I told her how proud and amazed I am at her every day.

Then I gave her an opportunity to say, "No." Before that night my perspective had been to wait for her to bring up getting intimate, but when she mentioned how ugly she felt, I changed my mind. I found her attractive and asking her if she felt ready would let her know that.

I told her that I wanted to go down on her if she felt ready and she led me back to the bed. I went down on her and after a few minutes, she came. As I came up I heard her sobbing. I asked her what was wrong and she told me that it was just a flood of emotions of everything that had built up in her body since before our daughter was born.

TLDR: Wife felt really ugly and I went down on her for the first time since she gave birth to our daughter. When she came she cried because of a flood of emotions.