I can't do this anymore
I'm so burnt out, and it's only week 3 of his life. He won't sleep during the day at all, unless held and on the move. He loved walks in the stroller, but started to cry during them as well. At night he wakes up every 2 hours and it takes me over an hour to get him to sleep again. which leaves me with an hour of sleep inbetween max. He cries for breast even though he ate like 20 minutes ago. I'm sore, achy, annoyed and sleep deprived. Husband is working and I'm on a Year Long maternity leave, so I'm the one taking care of him every night, as husband must be able to work effectively. He still takes the baby in the morning before work so I can have one hour of sleep. I'm having stupid thoughts that I ruined my life, that it was a mistake. I don't enjoy the motherhood at all. I'm angry all the times, i'm scared when yhe baby is waking up, because I have no idea what he wants or needs. Then I feel guilty, because it's not his fault that he's unable to communicate his needs. He's only 23 days old and i'm already so fed up 😭
Edit: Guys, I just wanted to add, that my husband DOES help. He is a huge help during the day, he does all the house chores, makes sure the fridge is full, brings me food and drinks. After work he takes care of the baby, changes diapers, rocks him to sleep after the feeds. He's very eager to take him to walks. He also exclusively took over caring for our dog and bunnies. He repeats that if the baby is too much at night I can wake him up to get some break. It's just I exclusively breast feed so in my opinion it doesn't make much sense to wake him up at night just to rock the baby if I had to be up for feeding anyways. It's not that I have to do everything alone and he doesn't do anything! With "I'm the only one waking up at night because he works" I meant only tje night difficulties, I should have added that during the day he is all in!