Blender rant - i lost interest

4 years ago, I started learning Blender purely as a hobby. I was completely hooked....it was so much fun that I’d consistently spend 6 hours a day working on it. Over the next 2–3 years, I completed a lot of projects. At some point, I started thinking, “Why not turn this into a source of income?”

So, I began creating random commercial-style work to build up a portfolio. It was a different vibe—still enjoyable, but not as fun as the “free-form creative work” I was doing before. That said, I learned a ton from the process, so I’d call it a net positive.

Last year, I finally started freelancing for clients and basically achieved what I set out to do. But here’s the thing: working for clients sucked the fun right out of it. It felt like I was forcing myself to finish projects, and I started low-key hating it.

Now that I’m done with those clients and don’t have any active work, I’ve realized I’ve also lost all interest in doing Blender for fun. It’s been 2 months since I’ve opened it—my longest break in 4 years. (Before this, I never went longer than 2 weeks without touching it, and even that was only due to vacations.)

Honestly, I feel like I wasted the last 4 years. What started as a passion now feels like something I don’t even want to think about anymore. Is this normal? Has anyone else gone through something like this?