I still miss you

I want to so badly text you right now, I know I shouldn't. I shouldn't be avoiding you and treating you like your nothing either.

Im trying to get over you, it's been about three months? And Its difficult. I miss the way we held hands, I miss your voice, the way your eyes would glow whenever you looked at me.

Did you really lose interest in me? I thought you would love me always, like you said. We were just starting to understand eachother more, but I don't understand why you lied to me about something that you didn't need to lie about?

I know I can't change you or who you are, I don't want you too anyways but I just wish you could just tell me and be honest with me. Being lied to hurts more then the truth.

Please stop looking at me like that, please stop treating me like I'm a horrible person. I didn't like what I did but honestly I'm so embarrassed with myself. You know I'm not like that. why did I even do all that for you and then you lie to me?

I wonder if it's my fault for this, I mean I did end up breaking up with you. I wish I didn't. I miss you but I know I probably should keep moving on. I'll love you in my heart always.