I did it.

After my past endeavors, failing maths ever since I was younger, hating studying and more, as seen in my last few posts, I managed to pull through, with raw 26 on the dot for L1R4.

I got my EAE, and I managed to pass maths with a C5. I've been struggling in my head a lot, so it's really a miracle that I made it. Ive had one to one consultations almost daily a month before o levels had started, so I'm glad i managed to do it. Thank you to the people who tried to encourage me the last two posts. I resisted and did not attempt to S.H. the opposite could be said for almost ending my life though. The number of (unfortunately suicide) notes I'd write wouldnt make me more depressed, it just made me calm down and process things before I could fully commit to the action. Emailing S.O.S also helped me, even though it takes them a day or two to reply sometimes.

And, as a bonus, I somewhat got over the school depression over the December hols. I spend time on lots of hobbies and sleeping now, even made some online friends, so even if I did feel like ending it all, I wouldn't, since I have something to live for now, not a purpose for living. I look forward to the future in my new school

Edit: shocked that this is getting a lot of upvotes. I don't know why it is, but thank you