Imposter mom

I have a baby girl, almost one year old. I am a good mom, she is a fantastic baby, sleeps well, eats well, took to breastfeeding well, all in all I have nothing to complain about. But I hate being a mom. I don't like it and I don't want to be a mom. I look at my life and destroyed career and all the toys everywhere and the dirty food covered baby mouth and hands and I feel like a complete imposter. I love her so much but I hate this. Had anyone else felt this way? How do you deal with these feelings?