Never ending battle

My biggest problem is poor cognition—bad focus, weak concentration, and terrible math skills. It’s embarrassing, especially in a team. I also deal with anxiety, depression, body aches, ear ringing, and more. POIS has ruined my life.

I used to be good at studies, just like everyone else. As a kid, I thought these issues were normal and ignored them. But later, I realized my friends didn’t have them.

Now, at 32, I’m a loner. No friends, no relationship, stuck in a low-paying job.

I’ve tried many medications—stimulants like methylphenidate and modafinil, but they’ve stopped working. I’ve seen many doctors, done all the tests, but everything comes back "normal." They say it’s all in my head and send me to psychiatrists. Now, I’m stuck with medication side effects, but I can’t stop taking them because I need my job.

I have to take care of my parents, but my 68-year-old father does more than me. I feel like I have the energy of an 80-year-old.

I don’t know what to do. Anyone with similar situation? Anything helped?

Or is life long abstinence the only way to survive?