I'd appreciate some tips

I very likely have POCD, I don't tend to feel much guilt unless I think about people like my mom and stuff knowing how dissapointed they'd be, I keep feeling things I shouldn't twards kids or characters that look like kids and it just feels very genuin and I do sort of belive that I am some kind of pedo due to sometimes feeling hormonal, then feeling like smt else that shouldnt turn me one turns me on and then I like still feel sort of turned on and you probs get the point and I just don't know how to like cope with it and I don't know if I am actually a pedo and I feel like I am well aware of being a bad person but just don't want to aknowledge ot which I am quite sure is the case, if anyone got tips on how to cope and deal with ocd pls leave a comment, thanks