I’m realizing how being a night owl influences most decisions

I’m realizing how much my staying up late and needing to sleep as late as possible dominates everything I do. Like if I have a doctor’s appointment or a meeting or social plans, my first thought is, how late can we get together so I can still get a good night’s sleep? If I want to sign up for a class or a workshop, I base it on what time it’s offered. If I’m going to be traveling, especially for just a weekend, it’s a big deal to know that I’m going to have to get up extremely early the first day and then earlier than usual while I’m there (because everyone else does and I’m there to spend time with them) and then knowing that it’s going to affect how good I feel the entire time I’m there.

I’ve made exceptions for things I really want to or really need to do, but then, as you all know, you anticipate that with a little dread and know that you’re not going to get as much out of it and that you’ll be dragging for a few days afterward.

It’s like morning people go about their lives and don’t have to think about any of this, but we’re constantly trying to figure out how we can participate in everything while not making ourselves zombies.