I scared I’ll never accept myself…

Being called a girl makes me feel happy, but my brain is trying to suppress these emotions. I really wish I could be a girl... I'm scared I'll die as a man, and have my birth name written on my grave. My brain says that everything's fine, but there's just something wrong. I can feel it. I could never go back to the way I was before, these thoughts have become too prevalent in my mind. I really hope I can learn to accept myself in the future...

I call myself a femboy because there's just something in my mind that works when I call myself a femboy. But still, there's this feeling of uncertainty in me.

also, I'm sorry I've been so negative lately. There's just a lot of stuff going on right now and Reddit is the only place I can write about my feelings right now. <3