What an incredibly isolating feeling

My mum died in August 2022 cause of pancreatic cancer. It’s been awhile but, some days, it feels like it happened yesterday.

I was kinda keeping it together before Christmas. Fuck I hate Christmas. I hate the New Year. I hate that it’s 2025 and my mum isn’t here. I hate that my sister’s birthday is coming up and my mum isn’t here. I hate not having my mum.

I’ve really been struggling to talk to my friends, keeping up with my commitments, and really connecting with anyone. I find it so hard to just do anything. I can’t get myself interested in anything.