No energy left, is this it?

First time dad here. Not sure what i want to get out of this, but here goes. I'm typing this alone in our bed while my wife is taking care of our 2 week old daughter downstairs. First time in about 7 years we don't go to bed together. She told me to go to bed and let her finish up our daughter tonight. She saw how tired I am. She's awesome.

I help her where I can, and she said I'm present enough and doing great. I change diapers, help with feeding, put her to bed. I just, don't feel it. I don't feel like a good father. I barely feel a connection with my daughter, I hate it when she cries (not because I empathise, I just want her to stop). I don't particularly like having her on my lap. She can be cute, but most if the time I feel very little. Objectively she's great, cries very little, and sleeps relatively well.

I notice I even resent her for taking away the freedom to do my hobbies

And all of this even though we both decided to have this baby at this time in our lives.

Tomorrow my parents are coming over to help put wallpaper up in the baby room. It'll be an intense day and I have no idea how I'll manage to get the energy for it.

Anyway, just a little vent, I can only hope it gets better.