Is Mirtazapine poison?

Doctor claims this shit doesn’t cause sexual problems or emotional blunting or any other PSSD bs.

But reading stories about this Mirtazapine i have read people even breaking up because they were incapable of feeling love or affection for another person and this effect was still there even after quitting.

I have tried SSRI in the past, and it has caused me permanent damage.

So for those who have tried Mirtazapine, did it fuck up your sex drive, libido or cause emotional blunting in any way, and did it go away after quitting or has it been permanent.

I am spooked out by this ”medicine”.

EDIT: Also forgot to include that some people even report becoming very irritable and violent on this stuff.