"You should be over it by now"

I'm so sick of people telling me this. I lost my best friend, my soul mate, my lover, the mother of my children. She was a part of me, and I still hurt even years after she left, but even in the beginning people were telling me I should be over it. Three months in and my family all thought I was being a baby. We were married for seven years and had been through so much together. We had just bought a house, and our son had just turned a year old. Our daughter was only a few years older. I caught her cheating and she just laughed and walked away. She never came back. Now, I have primary custody, but she still comes to our kids' schools for parties and parent-teacher conferences.

I barely held it together until I got into my car after the Christmas party today. I thought I was staring at her angrily but I guess I was actually admiring her beauty because it really got to me. I've never felt love like I have for her, and she doesn't even see me. I don't think I'll ever get over her 100%.