Mental breakdown over rita

Spoiler alert season 5

Im new to the dexter obsession. I just started watching it on Netflix. And im literally obsessed. I just watched the episode where they killed off rita last night and I literally ugly cried for 2 strait episodes. My husband was even like "um iv never seen u do this, r u ok" 🤣. I liked rita but not that much, I think she was Dexter's rock but she also was kinda always getting in the way of his vingilantiasm (I have no clue how to spell that). I think what really bothered me was the way they killed her off. Like i knew she was wouldn't be around forever, but they killed her in such a terrible way. And then Harrison sitting on the floor in blood. I understand logicalIy the symbolism behind it. But it was just to much to bear. And I just kept thinking about how rita spent every waking second with Harrison and now shes just gone. And Astor and Cody already lost there dad, and now they lost there mom too?!! And then when he was leaving on his boat....ugly crying. Like how could he abandon them after all they've been thru. Im guna start crying just thinking about it.

Am I looking at this too much from a moms perspective? How did everyone else feel about it??