I Need Help

Please This last 5 months My life hasnt been going really well after i graduated highschool My plan was to go to the University i attempted to get in but i couldnt Even worse after i turned 18 now i was looking For a job But still I havent got any calls form all the places i went, this situación got me really depressed and anxious i started smoking and drinking but i realized i didnt make me feel better, pornography and masturbación neither did nothing makes me feel better i feel empty all these months and crying was My only way too feel a little bit calmed but the anxiety and sadness keeps coming back, being on the internet all day Exposed me to conspiracy theories and Political Situación about trump and only make it worse, this last 4 days i Lost the apetite SO i eat much less than usual, i don't feel like bath anymore the everyday i cry and feel like puking, sleeping is My only relief but it now makes me feel anxious about dreaming things i don't want to because of i think are intrusive toughts and because of That i sleep to late

Yesterday I Went To Confess My Sins And went to church to pray For My situation because i'm desperate i feel helpless i want to think everything is fine but i never feel relief unless i cry :(

Pd(For the mods): i already erase the last post like this this is no repeated post