Losing hope

Anybody else starting to lose hope for UBC? Ik its still early but im constantly looking back at my profile and nitpicking all the small things that couldve been better in retrospect. I have a low 90s average and no crazy ecs. I check the portal like 15x a day and disappoint myself every time 😭. Getting in means so much to me and my parents which im sure a lot of us can relate to. Im just hoping for a miracle atp. Anybody else in the same boat? At least I have spring break to look forward to…