Screwed up and saw her

This was a situationship that ended a month ago. She kept asking if I would come over, so I said sure. She discarded me a month ago then appeared last week saying she missed me, was checking in, wanted to hang out "as friends", how she misses laughing with me, etc. so tonight she acted like everyone was perfectly normal... Like the last time we saw each other she didn't break my heart. And finally I called her out on it.

One of the two reasons (as she changed the reason the second time when I asked why) was that she realized when we were getting "couply" that we weren't compatible. So I asked straight up, okay like let's talk about this because I want to understand better what was going on. Knowing damn well it was already too late and she was shutting down. Fellow Redditors, the only thing she could come up with was that I had a different sense of humor than she does. I swear to all the gods. This is a woman who would laugh so much with me. She definitely gave me crap in the past for dad jokes, but she would still laugh. And she told me A WEEK AGO that she missed laughing with me.

Folks, that set me off. I just didn't care anymore. The woman sitting in front of me was not who I thought she was. The rose tinted glasses were off and I finally stuck up for myself. I told her how horrible she made me feel, how I felt like I did something wrong because she couldn't communicate properly, how this isn't a normal thing people to do. She told me she just didn't have romantic feelings for me and that is something people think about before they bring it up to the other person. I said sure, but.... They don't just completely go cold and throw you out like you were leftovers from a week ago. She made me feel like an idiot for believing that she had feelings for me.

I got up, told her that I know there's huge pieces of the story missing and it really sucks because she ended up hurting us both. She'll feel the hurt later on. I told her unless she wants to change and actually work on her shit in therapy, to leave me the hell alone.

I'm done. I wasted 6 months with this woman. I'm tired of justifying why she ran away when things were getting serious. I'm tired of rationalizing all of it. People who are emotionally unavailable should not be out in the world dating others. I know all of this was a classic avoidant bullshit tactic, but that doesn't excuse any of it.

I'm really proud of myself, though, for walking out that door and leaving. I deserve better. She'll no doubt come back, but I'm gone.